In the Church forgiveness doesn’t mean that there are no consequences


Okay, I know I’ve written about this before but with all that’s going on in the Church I really feel the need to say this again…which part of celibacy don’t these priests get? I am aware of what the Church teaches about sexual relations outside of a Catholic marriage. Are they aware of the teaching? The gall of these priests to act on their sexual desires when they too know the teaching is beyond my understanding. No sexual genital relations with another person means no sexual genital relations period.  It is not easy but it is not impossible.  A sexual relationship with another man or with a woman is a sacrifice a cleric makes at their deaconate ordination.

In the Closet of the Vatican: Power, Homosexuality, Hypocrisy, is a book that never should have been written because clerics should NOT be having sex. That it is a subject that warrants a book is a scandal.  Again I have to ask; which part of celibacy don’t these priests get?  Human weakness is one thing and it can be forgiven both by God and an by an imperfect institution. But living a double life, having a lover or lovers, flies in the face of what these clerics claim to believe.  Of course that can be forgiven by God if the behavior is repented of, it can even be forgiven by an imperfect institution but forgiveness doesn’t mean that there are no consequences for the sinful behavior that is admitted to or proven. My head spins.

Children, mostly boys, mostly 17 or under but post puberty, are the victims of these priests with no self-control. We also hear of the grooming of these same victims, so the priest is guilty of premeditated sexual abuse.  What kind of evil is involved when a priest chooses someone and then takes the time to ‘groom’ them knowing it is supposed to lead to some kind of sexual encounter with the chosen child? Unbelievable!

The answer is easy…prayer, supernatural faith, following and teachings and Church Doctrine of the faith.  These help mere mortals, sinful men, to keep evil at bay.  Less we forget we are all sinful.

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After the sex summit


Sad.

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Is Mr. McCarrick’s case a signal of the things that need to come?


I don’t know if this will make any sense because there are so many things racing around in my head.  Looking at McCarrick being de-frocked two things are in my mind, first is that he is the sacrificial lamb so that the bishops and the Vatican can point and say, ‘Look we did something.”  My cynicism is showing.  The other part of me, the delusional part, prays that this really was a first step in the Church’s attempt to do the right thing.

Tomorrow begins the Vatican Sex Summit. Who knows how that will turn out? We will see if the McCarrick thing was real and true or just a show…an 88 year old man who is the very visible sacrificial lamb.

God help us.

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Rev. Steve Marinucci, a rotten apple while at St. Charles Borromeo Seminary. Did it continue?


This week a friend of mine who happened to be in the seminary when I was in the seminary for a second time sent me a link to a story about one of the priests who was on the formation board at that time.  Steve Mari,nucci, age 71, is now off the job in the Archdiocese of Philadelphia. He has denied the accusation of molestation. Since a priest can retire at the age of 70 I am assuming he is retired and just helping out at a parish.  This priest was involved in causing considerable havoc in the lives of many seminarians, mine included. He was deceitful. He was incompetent. He was petty. He was just an all around jerk to have to deal with.

My reply to the e-mail I received was; He is innocent until proven guilty.  That said he was in a position to judge those men seeking ordination…WOW!  My next thought was that if he is truly innocent but acted in the same ways in a parish that he acted at the seminary then he pissed-off a lot of people.

I did have one recurring fantasy about this priest, one that I am not proud of, it consisted of a policeman coming to me telling me that he had been murdered. My response, (less than Christian), was, ‘Good!’ There  would be a myriad of suspects because of the things he was guilty of while at the seminary…all the people he was responsible for hurting, for all of the vocations his behavior harmed.

Is it beyond the realm of possibility that he is guilty of molestation? No, it is not.  But what he is definitely guilty of was being an awful priest and an awful example for the men at St. Charles Borromeo Seminary back in the 90’s..

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It is asinining to say that when a sexual relationship starts between adults and there is a significant power difference between the two parties that it is a consensual, sexual relationship. It is not. It is also asinining to say that any priest, anywhere, under any circumstances should be involved in a sexual relationship with anyone of any age or any gender.


One of my friends recently asked how I’m doing in regard to the ongoing and growing sex scandal in the Church.  I must admit that this is a trigger for me and is kicking my ass. The thing that is probably the most upsetting to me is watching sleazy cardinals and bishops try to worm their way out of and around this issue.

It is asinining to say that when a sexual relationship starts between adults and there is a significant power difference between the two parties that it is a consensual, sexual relationship. It is not. It is also asinining to say that any priest, anywhere, under any circumstances should be involved in a sexual relationship with anyone of any age or any gender.

Yes we are all sinners but we are not talking about weakness. What we are talking about is a pattern of sexual misconduct and subsequent attempts to cover-up. We are talking about priests living double lives. (be it heterosexual or homosexual…mostly the latter). We are talking about some priests and bishops giving the greenlight to sodomy and pushing an agenda that is against God and the Church.

If we truly believe that there is one God in three persons then it does not matter that homosexual activity was not called out by name by Jesus.  Fornication was called out by name by Jesus as wrong.  Homosexual activity was called out by name as sinful by St. Paul. It rests in the canon of the New Testament which is inspired by God.  Evil, another word for sin, can NEVER be alright with the Almighty. How come some people refuse to understand that?  How come some bishops and some priests refuse to understand that? One must ask do they even believe in God?

As I watch this scandal grow and hear the Church in America and their permissive attitude toward these demonic actions and I hear the permissive attitudes coming from Rome I cringe.  I am not sinless and by no means think that I have my eternity in heaven wrapped up. I am very aware that hell is a possibility for all of us.  I also know that partaking of fornication and of sodomy is not right, is not good, is a sin and will NEVER be something that God tolerates.

It is not only disingenuous but evil to lead anyone down that path.  Yet there are priests and bishops doing just that. Unrepentant mortal sin leads to hell.  That should be something that we all need to think about.

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Black as your soul, wobble in the wheel of the hierarchy


While walking my dog we took a stop for rest or for him to just spend some alone time with me sans cats.  I choose to believe the latter. My mind wandered to the priest sexual abuse scandal.  Sadly the sexual abuse scandal is never far from my thoughts. That is probably because not only was I sexually abused myself but also as a priest I work for the entity that is abusive and has always been very secretive about it. I started to think about if things would have been different if the scandal involved only the rapes of women?

While I was walking the dog my answer was yes it would have been very different. But now that I have warmed up after being out in the cold with the dog I fear that the answer is still a big fat, “NO”.  And this is why.  $$$$$$$! The almighty dollar rules. So much of the Church, so many in the Church, not just the hierarchy, have money as their God.  It reminds me a lot of the Nine inch Nails song, ‘God Money’.

Lyrics
God money I’ll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to
God money nail me up against the wall.
God money don’t want everything he wants it all.
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
God money’s not looking for the cure.
God money’s not concerned with the sick among the pure.
God money let’s go dancing on the backs of the bruised.
God money’s not one to choose
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take it
No you can’t take that away from me
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Songwriters: MICHAEL REZNOR
© THE BICYCLE MUSIC COMPANY

Biblically we have that you can’t serve both God and mammon. Michael Reznor gets it whatever his beliefs.  Maybe NIN is more  relevant to kids today than the bible. The bible should still be relevant to priests, bishops and cardinals.  You cannot serve both God and mammon.

That is just one more cog in this wobbly wheel we are calling the hierarchy. (The Church will survive no matter how wobbly that wheel.)  We have a love for power, a love for money, a homosexual current, some form of clericalism, narcissistic personalities, all of these issues, (and probably more), coming together to create a perfect, evil beyond belief, storm, engulfing the Church right now. God is God, I am not, you are not, God has this and will fix the wobble, and all that ails the Church.

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I do believe that most bishops are liars


It is 10:58 p.m. EST which is late for me. (I try to be in bed at 8:00 or 9:00. I could not sleep, I had to write.  Today there was a deanery meeting and the minutes from the Deans meeting with the bishop were made available to the priests in our deanery.  They contained what I construe as a lie from the bishop. Maybe it is not a lie maybe it is just him living in his own world of rainbows and unicorns.  Whichever one it is it triggered me.

I do believe that most bishops are liars, in love with their power, (no matter how little of it they have), and of course money.  Then I really started to think about my bishop. He has pretty much lied to the priests and the faithful of the diocese from the very beginning.  At his installation he spoke some pretty words about helping those that have been abused.  Then nothing.

Fast forward. He responded to something in the paper that could only be called insensitive. (Boneheaded ) I honestly don’t even remember what it was.  However I do remember responding with a very strong but respectful letter to him.  The one thing I vividly remember writing was that what he said could be taken as petty and he’s not petty.  Fast forward…the letter ended up in the hands of the personnel director. At a meeting for a transfer. He started waving it around. He was trying to intimidate me. I would not back down not even in the face of his angry sarcasm.

Fast forward again. The bishop told me that his experience in Baltimore with the victims of sexual abuse by clergy made him understand…made him “get it”.  I told him that he doesn’t get it at all.

Fast forward again. The priests of the diocese were together, maybe for retreat, I don’t remember. I remember again being triggered.  This was after Pope Benedict XVI told all of us to stop blaming others for the sexual scandal because it was/is our problem. Did he mean the Catholic Church? That’s how I took it. The bishop and some nun began the tired, old song that the press was to blame. During a separate comment session I went first and chastised them both for doing the exact opposite of what the pope had said.

Fast forward. Again, other priests were present, the topic of the diocesan bankruptcy because of the possible compensation for victims came up. He stated that if he didn’t declare bankruptcy he would not be the bishop for very long.  Wow! That is more important? Wow!

This does not have anything to do with sexual abuse by the clergy but speaks volumes of his character. When abortion loving Joe Biden was vice-president he once came to the church where I was stationed.  I knew, let me say that again, knew I would not be backed or supported in any way by the bishop if I refused to give Mr. Biden the Eucharist, (body, blood, soul and divinity of Christ), if he came to communion. So I sat down and did not give communion out at all.  I called the bishops office and got the chancellor. I asked about communion for abortion proponents. He had to get beck to me.  The answer was that the bishop did not want to politicize the Eucharist. (It’s already politicized isn’t it?)

 

(I would never kill myself so if I end up dead it was murder.)

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