Darkness will never win

Darkness versus Light.  Even though it does seem that in our present age that darkness has not only infiltrated every corner of the world; political, religious, social but that darkness is winning.  Darkness will never win, God will not allow Darkness to win. Since God is the burning light of truth it will always be the truth, the light, that wins.

As I often tell parishioners, we may not see it in our lifetimes but God always wins. It does often seem that we are on the precipice of disaster but then we must define disaster.  Is it a disaster that currently eight states; New Jersey, New York, Maryland, Vermont, Illinois, Missouri, Michigan, Nebraska and New Mexico are calling for investigations of the Catholic Church and the cover-ups involving sex abuse? I think it is God shining light in the darkness.  Is it a disaster that a group of wealthy Catholics is bankrolling a study of the cardinals from around the world to see how involved they are in corruption and cover-ups of sexual abuse…how many have turned a blind eye to actively homosexual clergy?   I think it is God shining light in the darkness. There are myriads of examples and some of them have bishops and clergy running scared.  Is that a disaster? I don’t think so. I think it is God shining light in the darkness. 

When we, the ordained, we are  lowly deacons, (said tongue firmly in cheek), we knew that we would have to commit to being celibate for the rest of our lives.  What does that mean? It means we won’t marry.  Along with celibacy is chastity, no genital sexual expression, with anyone…ever.

It is very different for a priest to fall as he’s struggling with chastity but something completely different to disregard celibacy/chastity and live a double life both embracing some sort of sexual expression with another and projecting that you are living the single solitary life of a priest. The two cannot be reconciled.  It does not matter if it is a woman or a man, it is not allowed.  (Ignoring that sexual expression between men is disavowed by the Church, as is any sexual expression between an unmarried man and woman.) If the ‘fall’ is with someone underage then it too is a monumental problem.

Is the the next scandal, priests, their concubines along with their illegitimate spawn????  The light will win! The truth will win! God will win, God always does.


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immigration and climate change will never be more important than the homosexual predation by clergy in the Catholic Church

There are some people in the laity that are acting very much like the bishops.  When I say that I mean that they choose to be tone deaf and operate from that tone deaf consciousness. When children don’t want to hear something they put their fingers in there ears and keep repeating la, la, la, la, la, la loudly. Or you can use as your example the proverbial ostrich with its head in the sand.  They are ways to avoid the current ugly reality of homosexual clergy abuse in the Church at this time.

This is the biggest scandal in our Church since the protestant reformation. As of today there are 10 states in the USA with attorney generals who want an investigation of diocese and or archdiocese to determine the extent of sexual abuse and cover-up in their states. TEN. Pennsylvania has already done an investigation, so make it 11.

What is it that a lot of bishops, archbishops and cardinal archbishops want? They want for everyone to stop talking about it so it will fade away and then they can get back to business as usual.  Contrary to what Blaise Cardinal Cupich will tell anyone who will listen; immigration and climate change will never be more important than the homosexual predation by clergy in the Catholic Church. I am sure that the victims of such men are insulted by his saying so.

Some laity and bishops are like children sitting in the marketplace and calling to one another, “‘We played the flute for you, and you did not dance; we sang a dirge, and you did not weep.’ Since the clergy will not clean up this mess it is up to the laity. I take no comfort in people who do not listen, do not understand and do not grasp the gravity of this situation. They are singing one of Zion’s songs to their captures.

It has been suggested that people will stop going to church if this is talked about continuously. My response; SO.  If you are not at mass for the body, blood, soul and divinity of Christ in the Eucharist then you are wasting your time and if you are there for the body, blood, soul and divinity of Christ in the Eucharist then you would never give that up.

Like every scandal that has ever engulphed the Church this one too will pass and like all the other scandals this one will not engulph the Church totally. Maybe this is God’s way to separate the chaff from the wheat. Move abusers around you are chaff. Sexually abuse others you are chaff. Habitually break your promise or vow of celibacy which implies chastity you are chaff. Leave the one true Church over this scandal or speaking about this scandal you are chaff.  Chaff is gathered and burned.  Don’t be chaff.

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God judges intention of the heart so there is no darkness

…”He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and manifest the intentions of hearts.” That is from St. Paul to the Corinthians.  WE HAVE BEEN WARNED. The intention of hearts part is scary.  I met Archbishop McCarrick on several occasions. He was very charming. I have no money to promise him, so he wasn’t trying to charm money out of my bank account. My good looks have long since faded, so it is unlikely that he was trying to charm me into his bed. There is nothing that I have that he could ever possibly want.  Is his being charming a habit formed by all of his secret, and not so secret, desires for money and sex?   Can being charming become habit?

God judges intention. I know from dealing with my own bishop and his predecessor that words, like honey, can drip from their lips but they, at least with some priests, mean something totally different than what they say, or say things that betray their tone deafness or worse, in my opinion, ignorance.

It has been my experience that contrary to the New Testament; priests, bishops, archbishops, cardinal archbishops suck-up to the wealthy and/or famous and do treat them in a different way. I was once told by a layman to find out who are the wealthy people in the parish and become friends with them. Wow, a layman sees that as normal operating procedure for clergy.  Does the rest of the world think that? Maybe I am tone-deaf.

You don’t get to places of power and authority without being adept at playing ‘the game’. This is as true in the Church as it is in the business world. Sociopaths? Psychopaths? They play the game really well.  They often get positions of power.

Therein lies the problem.  If consequences for my actions do not matter to me and I never have any remorse for the bad things I do then I can move predatory priests around, I can molest children, seminarians and other men without worry. “You are my friends, says the Lord, if you do what I command you.”    These people ARE NOT friends of God.

In the breviary Psalm 37 is summed up in this manner…The lot of the wicked and the good. Then it quotes Matthew 5:5 ‘Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.’  Meek, not haughty or arrogant but meek. Where are those men? We need smart and meek.


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Sodomy, bishops, priests and the Catholic Church

I do understand that this is shocking, distasteful, scandalous and something that I personally never dreamt I would write about…but my hand has been forced and it is now something that needs to be discussed. With all that is going on in the Church about priests, bishops, cardinals and even implication of the pope about covering up for the dalliances of homosexual priests and bishops it is enough for a person to lose their faith. DO NOT ALLOW THIS SCANDAL TO TAKE YOU AWAY FROM THE TRUTH OF THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH OR THE TRUTH THAT GOD HAS LEFT FOR US. These men and their seemingly compulsive actions are in no way sanctioned by God. For the record the word, “compulsive” in no way exonerates the guilty.

The word sodomy acquired different meanings over time. Under the Common Law, sodomy consisted of anal intercourse. Traditionally courts and statutes referred to it as a “crime against nature” or as copulation “against the order of nature.” In the United States, the term eventually encompassed oral sex as well as anal sex. The crime of sodomy was classified as a felony. Because homosexual activity involves anal and oral sex, gay men were the primary target of sodomy laws. Culturally and historically, homosexual activity was seen as unnatural or perverse. The term sodomy refers to the homosexual activities of men in the story of the city of Sodom in the Bible. The destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah because of their residents’ immorality became a central part of Western attitudes toward forms of non-procreative sexual activity and same-sex relations.

I will share my fear. I am aware that this is a difficult subject to talk about, but we must keep talking about it. If it all blows over, as the guilty would like, nothing will change, and nothing will be done to give the Church back to the faithful.
Some bishops have abetted homosexual clergy activity, (which is against chastity), by moving them around and/or looking the other way. It is one thing, still bad, for a priest to be involved in sexual activity with another priest, (have I mentioned that it is still bad), and something else for a priest or bishop to be sexually active with seminarians, which is different than being sexually activity with someone who is post puberty but not a seminarian. NONE OF IT IS GOOD.

The investigations by numerous states attorneys into this activity will keep this subject alive. It should be kept alive. As horrible as it is and as horrible that it makes us feel we must cling to reality that it is God. We also must remind ourselves that the Roman Catholic Church has the true presence of Christ in the Eucharist; body, blood, soul and divinity. Please don’t ever give that up.

“Let nothing disturb you, let nothing frighten you, all things are passing; God only is changeless. Patience gains all things. Who has God wants nothing. God alone suffices” Bookmark found in St. Teresa of Avila’s breviary.

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Pope Francis, cardinals, archbishops, bishops and priests, Clergy sex scandal. God is not happy.

I hardly know what to say about the latest development in the Church in reference to clergy sex abuse.  Reading the letter written by His Excellency Carlo Maria Vigano clarifies so much.   It debunks the randomness of it all. There does seem to be a conspiracy to silence victims and protect abusers and enablers.

Now what? I’m not going to lie this is painful for me both as a survivor of clergy sexual abuse and as a member of the clergy. Some people ask where is God in all of this?  I truly believe that God is the one who has shone his light on this situation. “Cling to him. Forsake him not.”  And we need to pray, pray, pray not only for the Church but for ourselves, the pope and all the actors in this drama.  Doesn’t this all seem very Shakespearian?

Here is a small part of Psalm 9;

The nations have fallen in the pit which they made, their feet caught in the snare they laid.  The Lord has revealed himself, and given judgement. The  wicked are snared in the work of there own hands.

Of course the fallout effects us all…”Cling to him. Forsake him not.”



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The extensive cover-up perpetrated by bishops, archbishops and cardinal archbishops, is a crime

Not speechless just sad… I am very aware that I cannot make anyone involved in the sexual abuse in the Church reject the evil that they have embraced. I am powerless to change the past. I agree that this debacle should never have happened.  It is not just a sin but a crime. The extensive cover-up perpetrated by bishops, archbishops and cardinal archbishops, is also a crime, and it hurts my heart. Many of the perpetrators of the sexual abuse and perpetrators of the massive cover-up are dead now. Many of them should have died in prison.

The incredibly disheartening thing for me both as a survivor of sexual abuse and as a priest is the continuing opaqueness of so many in the hierarchy of the Catholic Church surrounding this issue.  The ones guilty of continuing this cover-up should resign. Secrecy has not helped anyone, not the victims, not the priests who abused, not the individual dioceses and especially not the Church.  Opaqueness and secrecy have not and could never work. The idea that the laity do not have a right to know this information is disingenuous.   They are the ones aske to continuously pour money into diocesan coffers.

How many laypeople have left the Church? How many souls have been lost to Satan? Was it Satan who orchestrated this? He is the father of lies and all that seems to be coming from the mouths of many prelates are lies.

The Old Testament does speak of an incurable wound. Wound care dictates that the wound be cleaned out.  That can be very painful. This too is a wound to the faithful that needs to be cleaned out.  God knows what that entails.   This wound is only incurable if those in charge keep doing nothing.  Souls are being lost.  Do something.

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We can’t let sinners keep us from the true presence in the Eucharist

During 4:00 mass on July 28, I started my homily telling the congregation that I had a pounding headache, felt like I was going to throw-up and I wanted to cry. This was all brought about by the Theodore Cardinal McCarrick sexual abuse revelations added to the Honduran auxiliary bishop sex with seminarians revelation. It looks like both men have used their respective seminaries as their own private harems. Ug!   During the Eucharistic prayer at the 4:00 mass I did actually cry. After mass I did not greet the people but retreated into the priest’s sacristy to be alone.  At the 5:30 mass I just had the pounding headache and there were no tears.  The next day at the 8:30 mass I was just angry.

I said in the homily ad. nauseum, don’t leave the Church due to some men’s embracing evil, we have the true presence of Jesus Christ, body, blood, soul and divinity in every crumb of the Eucharist… Don’t let anyone chase you away from that because that is what Satan wants.

This week it seems to have gotten worse because of the denials, that seem like lies to the average person, coming from other USA prelates. Ug again!  This time I had 4:00, 5:30 then Sunday 8:30 and 10:00  mass’.  So again I was telling the congregation that just because priests, bishops, archbishops and cardinals of the Catholic Church have embraced evil, (not all of us), it does not mean the Church is evil.  The Church is about God. God is bigger than these men. If they choose to be hypocrites they will answer to God.  We too will have to answer to God.  And since not all denominations are the same and the Catholic Church is the one true Church. Don’t leave.

I realize that the decision to leave the Church is a kneejerk reaction to the hierarchy’s sinfulness and it is itself sinful.  This is why acting on emotion is dangerous. Why give up the true presence?  My emotional response was the desire to take all the bishops in the country, line them up against a wall, and shoot them. A sinful thought I know. I did go to reconciliation.  After that it did become clear to me that since I really have no power to correct this it is a waste of time and an occasion of sin to dwell on it.  My worry, anger, angst will not change time.  I cannot go into the past and make these men love and embrace truth. I cannot make them realize their hypocrisy.  I cannot make them live the gospel or chose the right thing. (For the record I can’t make myself live the gospel sometimes.  That is sin.) We are all sinners, all of us. And we can’t let sinners drive us away from the Church.  We can’t let sinners keep us from the true presence in the Eucharist.   So, I choose not to dwell on the wretchedness of men who are supposed to know what’s right and what’s wrong, and dwell on my own walk with God instead.

This in no way excuses what has been done, the abuse and multiple cover-ups, it just makes it more aggravating.  Men that should know better, men that should live the gospel, men that we call shepherds seem to have chosen earthly pleasures that lead to an eternity of damnation over the supernatural pleasures that lead to eternity with God. Using them as our guides we should not make the same mistake. Since God can write straight with crooked lines they are doing a perversion of their job as shepherds in showing all of us what not to do.

Don’t leave. Don’t abandon the true presence of God in the Eucharist.

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