Sodomy, bishops, priests and the Catholic Church

I do understand that this is shocking, distasteful, scandalous and something that I personally never dreamt I would write about…but my hand has been forced and it is now something that needs to be discussed. With all that is going on in the Church about priests, bishops, cardinals and even implication of the pope about covering up for the dalliances of homosexual priests and bishops it is enough for a person to lose their faith. DO NOT ALLOW THIS SCANDAL TO TAKE YOU AWAY FROM THE TRUTH OF THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH OR THE TRUTH THAT GOD HAS LEFT FOR US. These men and their seemingly compulsive actions are in no way sanctioned by God. For the record the word, “compulsive” in no way exonerates the guilty.

The word sodomy acquired different meanings over time. Under the Common Law, sodomy consisted of anal intercourse. Traditionally courts and statutes referred to it as a “crime against nature” or as copulation “against the order of nature.” In the United States, the term eventually encompassed oral sex as well as anal sex. The crime of sodomy was classified as a felony. Because homosexual activity involves anal and oral sex, gay men were the primary target of sodomy laws. Culturally and historically, homosexual activity was seen as unnatural or perverse. The term sodomy refers to the homosexual activities of men in the story of the city of Sodom in the Bible. The destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah because of their residents’ immorality became a central part of Western attitudes toward forms of non-procreative sexual activity and same-sex relations.

I will share my fear. I am aware that this is a difficult subject to talk about, but we must keep talking about it. If it all blows over, as the guilty would like, nothing will change, and nothing will be done to give the Church back to the faithful.
Some bishops have abetted homosexual clergy activity, (which is against chastity), by moving them around and/or looking the other way. It is one thing, still bad, for a priest to be involved in sexual activity with another priest, (have I mentioned that it is still bad), and something else for a priest or bishop to be sexually active with seminarians, which is different than being sexually activity with someone who is post puberty but not a seminarian. NONE OF IT IS GOOD.

The investigations by numerous states attorneys into this activity will keep this subject alive. It should be kept alive. As horrible as it is and as horrible that it makes us feel we must cling to reality that it is God. We also must remind ourselves that the Roman Catholic Church has the true presence of Christ in the Eucharist; body, blood, soul and divinity. Please don’t ever give that up.

“Let nothing disturb you, let nothing frighten you, all things are passing; God only is changeless. Patience gains all things. Who has God wants nothing. God alone suffices” Bookmark found in St. Teresa of Avila’s breviary.

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Pope Francis, cardinals, archbishops, bishops and priests, Clergy sex scandal. God is not happy.

I hardly know what to say about the latest development in the Church in reference to clergy sex abuse.  Reading the letter written by His Excellency Carlo Maria Vigano clarifies so much.   It debunks the randomness of it all. There does seem to be a conspiracy to silence victims and protect abusers and enablers.

Now what? I’m not going to lie this is painful for me both as a survivor of clergy sexual abuse and as a member of the clergy. Some people ask where is God in all of this?  I truly believe that God is the one who has shone his light on this situation. “Cling to him. Forsake him not.”  And we need to pray, pray, pray not only for the Church but for ourselves, the pope and all the actors in this drama.  Doesn’t this all seem very Shakespearian?

Here is a small part of Psalm 9;

The nations have fallen in the pit which they made, their feet caught in the snare they laid.  The Lord has revealed himself, and given judgement. The  wicked are snared in the work of there own hands.

Of course the fallout effects us all…”Cling to him. Forsake him not.”



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The extensive cover-up perpetrated by bishops, archbishops and cardinal archbishops, is a crime

Not speechless just sad… I am very aware that I cannot make anyone involved in the sexual abuse in the Church reject the evil that they have embraced. I am powerless to change the past. I agree that this debacle should never have happened.  It is not just a sin but a crime. The extensive cover-up perpetrated by bishops, archbishops and cardinal archbishops, is also a crime, and it hurts my heart. Many of the perpetrators of the sexual abuse and perpetrators of the massive cover-up are dead now. Many of them should have died in prison.

The incredibly disheartening thing for me both as a survivor of sexual abuse and as a priest is the continuing opaqueness of so many in the hierarchy of the Catholic Church surrounding this issue.  The ones guilty of continuing this cover-up should resign. Secrecy has not helped anyone, not the victims, not the priests who abused, not the individual dioceses and especially not the Church.  Opaqueness and secrecy have not and could never work. The idea that the laity do not have a right to know this information is disingenuous.   They are the ones aske to continuously pour money into diocesan coffers.

How many laypeople have left the Church? How many souls have been lost to Satan? Was it Satan who orchestrated this? He is the father of lies and all that seems to be coming from the mouths of many prelates are lies.

The Old Testament does speak of an incurable wound. Wound care dictates that the wound be cleaned out.  That can be very painful. This too is a wound to the faithful that needs to be cleaned out.  God knows what that entails.   This wound is only incurable if those in charge keep doing nothing.  Souls are being lost.  Do something.

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We can’t let sinners keep us from the true presence in the Eucharist

During 4:00 mass on July 28, I started my homily telling the congregation that I had a pounding headache, felt like I was going to throw-up and I wanted to cry. This was all brought about by the Theodore Cardinal McCarrick sexual abuse revelations added to the Honduran auxiliary bishop sex with seminarians revelation. It looks like both men have used their respective seminaries as their own private harems. Ug!   During the Eucharistic prayer at the 4:00 mass I did actually cry. After mass I did not greet the people but retreated into the priest’s sacristy to be alone.  At the 5:30 mass I just had the pounding headache and there were no tears.  The next day at the 8:30 mass I was just angry.

I said in the homily ad. nauseum, don’t leave the Church due to some men’s embracing evil, we have the true presence of Jesus Christ, body, blood, soul and divinity in every crumb of the Eucharist… Don’t let anyone chase you away from that because that is what Satan wants.

This week it seems to have gotten worse because of the denials, that seem like lies to the average person, coming from other USA prelates. Ug again!  This time I had 4:00, 5:30 then Sunday 8:30 and 10:00  mass’.  So again I was telling the congregation that just because priests, bishops, archbishops and cardinals of the Catholic Church have embraced evil, (not all of us), it does not mean the Church is evil.  The Church is about God. God is bigger than these men. If they choose to be hypocrites they will answer to God.  We too will have to answer to God.  And since not all denominations are the same and the Catholic Church is the one true Church. Don’t leave.

I realize that the decision to leave the Church is a kneejerk reaction to the hierarchy’s sinfulness and it is itself sinful.  This is why acting on emotion is dangerous. Why give up the true presence?  My emotional response was the desire to take all the bishops in the country, line them up against a wall, and shoot them. A sinful thought I know. I did go to reconciliation.  After that it did become clear to me that since I really have no power to correct this it is a waste of time and an occasion of sin to dwell on it.  My worry, anger, angst will not change time.  I cannot go into the past and make these men love and embrace truth. I cannot make them realize their hypocrisy.  I cannot make them live the gospel or chose the right thing. (For the record I can’t make myself live the gospel sometimes.  That is sin.) We are all sinners, all of us. And we can’t let sinners drive us away from the Church.  We can’t let sinners keep us from the true presence in the Eucharist.   So, I choose not to dwell on the wretchedness of men who are supposed to know what’s right and what’s wrong, and dwell on my own walk with God instead.

This in no way excuses what has been done, the abuse and multiple cover-ups, it just makes it more aggravating.  Men that should know better, men that should live the gospel, men that we call shepherds seem to have chosen earthly pleasures that lead to an eternity of damnation over the supernatural pleasures that lead to eternity with God. Using them as our guides we should not make the same mistake. Since God can write straight with crooked lines they are doing a perversion of their job as shepherds in showing all of us what not to do.

Don’t leave. Don’t abandon the true presence of God in the Eucharist.

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Here is one other thing people need to know about those of us who have been molested by priests.

Here is one other thing people need to know about those of us who have been molested by priests.  I will use myself as an example. It was 21 years before I could even speak about my own molestation by a priest…out loud…and to another person.  Until that time it was a closely guarded secret…something shameful.  Contrary to what a lot of people believe it was in no way cathartic to say it out loud.  Before speaking it out loud it seemed to just be an abstraction in my sad reality.  Speaking it out loud made it real.  It was not a relief, it marked the beginning of my struggle for healing. Even though I had finally acknowledged it I was not ready to deal with it.  (Circumstances forced my hand.)

I was lucky, if you can use the word lucky in this circumstance, the man who molested me was still alive and was still a priest.  No one ever said to me that since the priest was dead he couldn’t defend himself.  What? That is an incredibly stupid thing to say. Does being dead exonerate Nazi concentration camp guards?  I held the secret inside of me for over two decades.  I have learned that 21 years is a miniscule time to keep the secret of sexual abuse.

Needless to say, (yet I will say it), that when someone spouts off to me, (usually in a condescending tone), that accusing the dead is suspect, it takes all the self-control that God makes available to me not to punch them.  It’s as if the speaker is saying that because the molester is dead then the molestation didn’t happen.  Twenty-one years it took me to admit what happened, twenty-one years.  I have served on retreats for the abused where some of them have held it a secret for 40, 50 or 60 years.  Of course the person who molested them is dead, it took that long for them to seek help.

Some priests and bishops do not and I fear never will understand that this is a kind of living hell for those of us who have survived.  Look at the recent unpleasantness; Chile, Honduras, the USA with Cardinal McCarrick…why is this still an issue? It is an issue because of silence in the face of evil, cover-ups in the face of evil, hierarchy who belittle victims in the face of evil. EVIL.

It is so difficult to be a priest in this corporate climate that seems to have embraced what is evil.  But in the end the truth will triumph. I fear I will never see it but the truth, goodness, holiness will prevail, will triumph.










, the USA with Cardinal Mc



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Leaving the Church because of the sinful men involved is just stupid

This will be brief. The sexual molestation scandal is NOT about God it is about sinful man. Leaving the Church because of the sinful men involved is just stupid. Since going to mass is about the worship of God and God is truly present, body, blood, soul and divinity in the eucharist, why give that up?  At least be honest and acknowledge that you were just looking for a reason to leave the Church.  If anyone had a right to leave the Church it would be me.  I am aware that I am not there for man but am there for and because of God.

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The GOSPEL thing.

Sometimes, when you don’t know the facts about something, (as recently demonstrated by the bishops of the United States), it is more prudent to keep quiet and not to broadcast your collective ignorance to the world. This orational diarrhea is rampant in the world, the news media and in the Church. It is both sad and dangerous. Why take into account facts when raw emotion can rule the day?

It is ironic that when it comes to the priest sexual abuse crises, and it’s still a crisis, bishops and their ilk first tried to inflame the emotions of people by blaming others for their own failings. Then they attempt to fan the flames of discontent trying to further make themselves look like the victims when all along they failed to do the GOSPEL thing.

How sad that it is necessary for the laity to try to educate themselves when it comes to the faith and what is needed by all of us to get to an afterlife, an eternity with God.
Global climate change, immigration, open or closed borders ARE NOT ISSUES THAT WILL SEND US TO HELL! Love of neighbor has NOTHING to do with putting ourselves or our country in danger. Prudence, a Cardinal Virtue, can and should be operated in this instance. Remember not everyone who showed up at Ellis Island was able to get into the USA…some people were sent back home for a variety of reasons. There were people who lied about what it was that they did in Europe during World War II, working in concentration camps for instance, they were stripped of their American Citizenship and sent back to Europe for trial. What would open boarders bring?

The way that we are called to love our neighbor is to provide for our neighbor not blindly kowtow to the illegality that finds its way into human trafficking and drug smuggling. In the parable of the good Samaritan the lesson is to provide for the less fortunate. Even though the Samaritan was moved with pity he did not take the victim of robbers to his home. He provided for his care. That is/was the GOSPEL thing.

When the bishops tried to elevate the emotions of the laity in reference to the sex scandal, there have been many, they pulled out hot button issues such as not having money for the poor and needy, (cue the violins). This was as if to say that the victims of priests abnormal sexual predilections and the subsequent cover-up of this non-gospel travesty were not needy.  How offensive and insulting.

Of course it was drummed into the heads of the laity that all we victims wanted was money. Of course lawyers and reporters were also to blame.  The most disturbing thing about this campaign was that it worked on more than a few of the laity.  Stir up the emotions of the people and they cannot think clearly and as it turns out facts do not matter.

It seems that not only facts do not matter to the bishops of the USA but neither does the Gospel of Jesus Christ.


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