This will be a brief entry. In a recent correspondence with someone I care about she marveled at the fact she did not know I had a blog. The blog is primarily for my own edification. if someone gets something out of my blogging then that is just gravy.

A very long time ago, maybe it was in the blog, I did address the absolutely infuriating and saddening reality that Mr. & Mrs. Smith taking up room in the church pew do not in any way want to know or hear about any unchurchly behavior in the Church perpetrated by some member of the clergy or by any of those laypeople who work for/in Church. Grow up! Some people live in an alternate reality and like living in obliviousness or they have their heads hiding in the sand or firmly shoved deeply up their own behinds. Anything they need to do to cling onto a Church that doesn’t exist. Reality is sometimes too painful to address. Of course if it doesn’t get addressed it can never be fixed. Abuse and trauma is the same, it has to be addressed and embraced to engender healing. It is painful though, I’m not going to lie. However it is necessary.

That of course brings me back to my circumstance. What do you do, how do you act, when you are re- abused over and over again? Full and complete healing is very difficult to achieve. By abuse in this context I’m referring to the constant lies and slander and hostility I have had to endure from both clergy and non-clergy alike. Unfortunately, I am not unique.

As long as the men who run things continue to lie and deny, avoiding the truth, then the Church will NEVER be trustworthy for a lot of people.